this is for you (re: anthony bourdain)
i know this.
we have a head that lies to us and feeds us misinformation.
we often aren’t aware of that, and think that the voice is ‘true’ or ‘real’.
we add alcohol to that and then voice is very loud, dark and insistent.
His girlfriend’s friend, Rose McGowan, wrote:
Bourdain reached out for help before his death, “yet he did not take the doctor’s advice.”
this is the part that flattened me, i think.
that for whatever reason, he couldn’t hear the thing:
you have a voice in your head that lies to you. it tells you to drink. it tells you it won’t get better.
you could remove the alcohol and see what happens to that voice.
and if you can’t remove the alcohol easily, or on your own (i couldn’t) then reach out for help and open the top of your head and let the advice in, even when it sounds ridiculous to your addictive drinking (wolfie) voice.
remember that the booze voice in your head is lying to you.
any voice you hear that ISN’T saying “take good care of you” is what I call wolfie.
i feel like i could say this every day, forever, and it wouldn’t be enough. and it’ll be just the right thing at the right time for someone else.
It’ll be both. not enough.
and enough.
this is for you.
hugs
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Belle Robertson, sober 7.5 years, blogs and writes and records free sober audios. She has been sober penpals with 3,095 people. She works as a text designer, a baker & caterer, and as a sober coach. She thinks that bakeries should have fresh bread NOT ONLY in the morning, but ALL DAY. This blurb updated January 2020.
